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My read on it is that she's been comparing herself to her friends and the people around her, and finding that her own feelings, and her own "development" as an adolescent, aren't squaring up with what she perceives as the expected norm.That’s interesting. Now I wonder if she’s just not interested in romance generally. She’s clearly been confused and worried about the dynamics of their relationship. I’m also interested in the continuing narrative around her being the “slowest” to “mature” in her friend group. Those terms in quotes because defining them is often nebulous and prone to bias. They’re necessarily subjective terms but it seems Chita has defined them in a way that’s left her feeling behind or imperfect. Really helps further explain her recent eating issues as well; the lead up to graduating is causing a lot of sudden new changes when she’s already felt unable to keep up with the previous ones. Now, how will Tokio be supportive here? I know he will in his own way. Their conversation next chapter will be really meaningful for them.
So because her own interests and her own mindset toward Tokio are "not correct", she's left with that dissonance of "okay so...am I just not mature enough yet? Will I get it if time keeps going? But what if I don't get it?" And so Chiita just shoves it all aside and keeps doing her thing, thinking maybe it'll all sort itself out.
So when it doesn't, and she's aware that Tokio likes her and she knows what that's supposed to mean, and then she doesn't feel the same way even though she thinks she's supposed to, it creates that disconnect for her. She's stuck, she can't move forward, she's not growing like her friends, and now she's being left behind and she's terrified that she'll lose everyone as they move forward in life while she's incapable of following along.
Which....if that is the core of Chiita's issue, then it kinda re-frames her whole character through this series. It doesn't excuse some of the stuff she's pulled, but it's now all coherent to me.
I dunno if it's a play to make Chiita aromantic or asexual or something, or if it's a "she's literally just taking longer than the others for it all to 'click'", or what--but if the author were trying to go the ace route for Chiita, it's at least a workable foundation.
But the trick will be whether Tokio wants to stick around, even if his romantic feelings are never reciprocated, because Chiita is that important to him--and if he wants to remain her friend, then it'll come down to whether he can convince Chiita that he's not suppressing his unhappiness in being around her.
Nothing says they can't remain friends, but they'll both have to work to ensure there's no lingering regrets or resentment or mismatched dynamic between them, if Chiita can never functionally reciprocate anything other than platonic friendship.