I'm on Yukiya, it's counterproductive to go in a relationship when you don't even like yourself. The fact you don't means your person, in your mind, is lacking. From your POV, you are not the person you want to be, so even if someone love you right now, they may not love the person you want to be. Don't waste other people's time, and don't waste your time either, because once you've become the person you want to be, you may not even have the same feelings as you had before. Once you're comfortable with yourself, that you're no longer plagued with so much doubts and uncertain of your future, then relationship is on the table. Before that, you should be too busy thinking of yourself and building yourself to worry about another.