Reading this a second time just made me even more emotional than when I first did, the first time reading it I just really took in the surface but reading it the second time I was able to reflect myself onto him, I understood punpun at a deeper level, seeing innocent turn into what he became broke my heart. He never learned how to express himself and the adults he was forced relied on never had his back. He was alone from the start and that was probably why he bore all his burdens alone. Since he never had anyone except himself to rely on when he was younger, he only learned to deal with his problems through self pity, he knew no better. He only worked hard in school because that was the only redeeming quality he could have to make himself feel normal. Aiko had such a big impact in his life when he was younger, and it was probably the first time he felt like he had someone to rely on, which is why he Aiko was his only hope. He started to believe this so much that it became his only goal, he thought the only way to finally live a normal life, be happy, and fix all his problems was to find her (which is why he blocked out any progress he made with the others). He was stubborn looking for happiness with aiko and only aiko. When he finally found aiko, he finally felt like his life could begin but They soon both found out that neither of them could rescue the other, but they both still hung on to that thin line the the other was going to save them. But not being able to fix their own problems they just burdened each other. But in conclusion seeing him go from chocopies and thinking about being able to colonize the starts to seeing his life crumble before his and letting go to his ambitions then finally hitting rock bottom really hurt me in more ways than one.