I've done some really dumb mistakes in the past, specially in my teenage years. I apologized to some people that I know I hurt, but I'm afraid that something I did will bite me in the ass any moment from now on, specially with all the cancel culture stuff. Sure, I'm not an influencer or famous, and maybe my fear is just anxiety product of the months I spent stuck at home due to covid, but still. I fear that any moment from now on I will receive a message about how a screenshot from a chat I had years ago, or a video of a stupid thing I did is now circulating the internet, with everyone wanting to come after me. Hell, I've seen people getting eaten alive from Facebook chats from 2011, who's to say that it will not happen to me?
I have talked with friends, they all tell me that it's not big deal and that I should just chill, but I can't. Some nights I can't sleep, thinking about things that I said or did years ago, just wishing that I could magically travel in time and wake up a decade ago to fix so many mistakes, only to be disappointed when I wake up the next morning still in the present
Some times I just want to disappear, to vanish from everyone's memories and just cease to exist. It's been this way since september of the last year, and although now I feel a little better, I just want to stop feeling like this.
