I was recently diagnosed with both Asperger‘s and ADHD (apparently the latter is commonly partnered with the former), and I’m now taking meds. I told the psychoanalyst I can read people pretty well from their facial expressions, their habits and their vocal expressions, and they told me the fact that I can’t read people more instinctively and instead spend time and effort discerning them is pretty good evidence for autism.
I’m really, really badly addicted to dopamine, which on occasion has manifested as a video game addiction or a porn addiction, but by far the biggest source is interaction with other people, whether it’s talking to them, chatting with them, or simply being in a room with them. It bothers me how little control I have over my interactions with others, and how often I say stuff I regret afterwards, at the same time it gives me such a kick. I’ve been really pushing myself to focus on my studies the past couple weeks, and I’ve been secretly thinking „Maybe I’ll die from a heart attack, that would really show them“ (it helps that my meds are giving me this weird feeling of power in my chest that causes me to obsess over stuff even more and sometimes gives me the urge to yell or causes me physical pain).