My family is probably the one thing I love and know will remember me. But then I remember that after a few generations. I will be forgotten. But out of all this. My worst one is that everyone I know leaves before me. Whether it be because of old age, medical issues, or something else. They will leave me. A sad human being. To rot in my room. I don´t know how to make friends. Even if I tried, I don´t have any good qualities that could make get me, even if they´re superficial, friends. I feel like my life has been going downhill, simply because I won´t leave an impact of any significance. I don´t even know what I want to do. My job I want to do is you tube. But I have no qualities that could make me a good youtuber. Even if I did, because of the algorithm I need so much luck. At this point I just want to end it all. But I´m too scared to do it. I don´t know if I want to go to college since all of the other jobs I could think of are just, boring. I understand it´s to get by but I don´t wanna get by, I want to be up above. But I don´t have the dedication to stick to it.