Just want to put it out there if anyone's struggling with this type of thing -
1. People are not objects.
You are a person and you deserve respect and to be heard and to be alive.
Children are also people they aren't objects no matter how young or cute. They deserve respect and because they aren't able to protect their own dignity, we have to do that together.
If you've ever been hurt in the past, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry we didn't protect you. Let's work together so no one has to go through what you went through.
2. Get help.
It's the scariest thing in the world to admit what's inside you. It's terrifying to think people might see you as a monster or disgusting.
You are not a monster. You are not disgusting. Your struggles are your struggles. You are valid.
If you are acting on your impulses though, you have to understand, violating someone who is helpless is a disgusting act.
Please, get help.
Refusing to get help means you are endangering others and if you are endangering others, the law is going to get you, one way or another.