Any kind of addiction is actually terrifying. If you want to find someone to ask for help do it carefully, because not everyone is the right person to consult and a lot of times when telling people about your condition, they would blame you (e.g. blaming you for not praying enough, for involving yourself in a social circle they never approved of, or for taking basically any choice in your life) and just make things worse for you even if they don't intend to do so.
Recommend to seek professionals' help.