That reminds me, I had a crush like...
I romantically like him, but I still imagine him with another guy doing stuff...
And I still imagine it.
And somehow, after I openly displayed my interest about bl relationship in my class, bl ships came to be quite popular among the girls in my class. Though, most boys in my class told me to stop fantasizing it.
I get the feeling that I would feel conflicted if my husband do that. Between feeling disappointed and curiosity of wanting to know about their(males) relationship.