New day new me lol, rereading that last bit got rough lmao, that's when the meds really kicked haha.
(also I'm new to the forums so idk all the formatting yet, my apologies.)
@aftermidnightmoon - It's been particularly bad for me in the past couple years. 90% of it I'm certain is anxiety related. I just finished my bachelors on top of my whole family moving to the other side of the country, so the past 1.5 years have been very chaotic. But I'm settled down now, I've been moved for over a year, out of school for half a year, figured my shit should be together by now buuuuuut eh. Still can't sleep when I decide to. Probably gonna go do a sleep study at some point here.
.... Also, are you saying I'm a trap? hahah. Wouldn't be first time I've been accused of unfortunately lmao.
@DANDAN_THE_DANDAN - Nah brah its good. Frankly, this /IS/ me at my best. I've been treated and am being treated for ADD, so while even though the treatment isn't perfect, I'm at very least functional.
Like I'll walk you through one of my worst days ever, when I ran out of meds and was waiting on the new script.
>Wake up, is hungry "I'm going to the kitchen to make breakfast"
>Enter kitchen, see fridge notice board "Oh, my roommate paid the bill. I need to pay her my share of it, I should do that"
>Write check, go back to room. 5 minutes pass
>"Oh yeah, I was getting breakfast"
>Go back to kitchen, see dishes in the sink "Oh I should wash those."
>Wash dishes, go back to room
>"OH YEAH. I was getting FOOD"
>go back to kitchen, see cat food bowl is empty. "I need to feed the cat"
>Feeds cat, goes back to room
Annnd, so on and so forth. It took like 6 trips and over an HOUR to remember I was trying to FEED MYSELF. Unmedicated, it takes only the smallest distraction for me to completely forget what my original task at hand was. You ever walk into a room and forget why you did it, that was a daily occurrence for me. Medicated, I'm much better. I still lose focus somewhat frequently, but it doesn't take as long for me to snap myself back into focus. So I've always felt that if I had the power to freeze time, I could at least then afford to take an hour trying to remember I need to eat while getting distracted by small chores that have lower priority lol.
In school, test taking was always the worst. It wasn't that I didn't know the content, it was that I had to read the questions 3 times over because I would lose focus mid sentence and not even comprehend what was being asked. By the time I finished question 1, the rest of the class was on question 5. And when you only have 45 minutes to take a test with 50 questions, I often found I was leaving the test half blank (because schools no longer have to recognize ADD as a learning disability to accommodate for.)
But that's a topic I could rant about for 80 pages if left uncheck.
No prob lol. It was an interesting little one shot, and I collect manga caps out of context so when I saw this cute monster face girl I was like, it's me. It's my persona.