Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 41 - Everything, Falling Apart

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So we’ll finally have Yuu’s POV, in the form of a side story. For now, it’s only available in novel format. In my previous post, complementing @middle-the-nerd, I shared what Maruto posted on X, confirming that this will indeed be Yuu’s arc. Here’s an MTL of the chapter:

wglwEbN.png

Chapter 1: A Fateful Encounter

It was in March of the year when Hikari and I were about to start elementary school that our families, the Takamuras and the Shirasakas, moved into these side-by-side prefab homes.

Just a little earlier, at the end of February, I had come down with a bad case of chickenpox, right before graduation from kindergarten and the move. Because of that, I wasn’t able to say goodbye to any of my kindergarten friends and just ended up moving into this house.

And even in April, after the move, the traces of the illness, the rash, were still all over my face and body, and as soon as I entered elementary school, I ended up practically not going at all.

With those ugly bumps all over my face, arms, and legs, I didn’t just hate the idea of going to school, I even cried at the thought of stepping outside or going into the yard. My parents were clearly at their wit’s end, but they never scolded or forced me; they let me do as I pleased.

So for a while, I stayed shut in my room, spending the day in bed and staying up late at night when I couldn’t sleep. I was free to do what I wanted, but none of it was fun.

That miserable routine was finally broken on a Sunday.

Hikari: “Ah-ha~! There you are~!”
Yuu: “Eh...”

That day, as usual, I was killing time with nothing to do, and on a whim, I opened the window of my room, which had been shut tight all this time.

But outside the window wasn’t some great view or anything, just the wall of another prefab house, the same design as ours, and a window facing mine that was built exactly the same.

From that window, a girl about my age was resting her chin on her hand, staring right at me.

Hikari: “Heyyy~ heyy~, what's with those little dots~?”
Yuu: “Huh!?”

It was only the second thing she said after we met for the first time, but she, Shirasaka Hikari, suddenly asked about the traces of the illness still left on my body.

Now, knowing her well, I can say without a doubt that it was just innocent childlike curiosity. Nothing more.

But for a shy first-grade boy, being asked something like that out of nowhere by a girl he just met… well, it was rough. Really rough.

Yuu: “…uh”
Hikari: “Huh?”
Yuu: “Uwaaah… Waaahhhhhhh!”
Hikari: “Eh? Ehhhhhhh!?”

I cried so loud that you could hear me from the living rooms of both our houses, and of course, our parents from both sides were totally shocked.

Later, when Hikari’s parents found out why I had burst into tears, they apologized to us so profusely it made us feel bad. And then, in response, they scolded Hikari really harshly, so harshly that she ended up bawling too, and then our parents felt terrible. It was a whole cycle of apologies and tears.

But in the end, that intense first meeting ended up cementing a friendship between the Takamuras and the Shirasakas that has lasted over ten years, through family outings and dinners together.

Even now, whenever our families hang out, that story always comes up. It’s our go-to tale. Hikari always gets mad, and I always get embarrassed.

And so, the next morning, the doorbell rang. My mom answered the door…

There stood Hikari, smiling brightly with her backpack on, completely oblivious to the situation, she had come to invite me to walk to school together.

…………

…………

Boy 1: “Whoaa, what's up with this guy~?! He's covered in weird dots all over~!"”
Boy 2: “Ewwww~, gross~! Stay away, stay away!”
Yuu: “…”

Dragged along by her and nervously making my way into the classroom, I was immediately hit with a “welcome” from some of the boys in class.

The rashes on my face and body had already healed and scabbed over, but of course, first graders couldn’t tell the difference. Once a few boys started teasing me, others quickly joined in, until about ten of them were jeering at me in chorus, louder and louder.

And just as I was about to be swallowed up by the same sadness I’d felt over the weekend, tears welling up again, thinking “I shouldn’t have come after all”—

Hikari: “You absolutely, ABSOLUTELY can’t say stuff like that!!”

Her voice rang out loud enough to probably reach the teachers’ office. Hikari, the girl who had brought me here, shouted at them, her face bright red with anger.

Hikari: “It’s a disease anyone can get! You could get it too!”
Hikari: “It hurt a lot, okay!? He toughed it out, put on his medicine, and finally got better so he could come to school!”
Hikari: “So that makes him amazing! He’s way, way more amazing than any of you!”

…That whole speech sounded really familiar.
Right, she was repeating almost word for word the scolding she’d gotten from her parents the day before.

Which meant her words weren’t exactly based on her own knowledge or understanding.
She just believed it was right because her parents said so. She got scolded like that, so now she was turning around and throwing it at everyone else.

And if you asked, “So does she really understand what she’s saying?”, well, honestly, I’m pretty sure she didn’t.

But even so…
Even if it was secondhand, even if it was naive, even if she was just being impulsive—

I still thought Hikari’s outburst was the coolest thing in the whole world.

In the first class of the day, our homeroom teacher spent the entire period explaining my condition in detail to everyone.

And the boys who had teased me? They were forced to apologize in front of the whole class. (Honestly, that probably traumatized them too.)

With “justice” officially served, Hikari couldn’t stop grinning in triumph.

That was the moment of my “fateful encounter”, and the start of my first love.

Looking back on it calmly, there were plenty of questionable things about how she handled it.
When I later told the story to four of my friends, three of them went, “Seriously? You fell for her because of that?”

But still… in that moment, what saved me was how casual she was, and how unreasonably, irrationally on my side she was.

Hikari: “If anything ever happens again, make sure to tell me, okay? Ta~kun!”
Yuu: “Y-yeah… Thanks, Hikari-chan.”

…By the way, she didn’t actually remember my name correctly back then.
And that’s how my life as “Ta~kun”, the childhood friend, began.

…………

…………

Takamura Yuu, first grade at the time.

Back then, I had no idea she’d turn out to be such a hard nut to crack…
Or that I’d end up being this pathetically hung up on her.


Insight:

Not the brightest start for Yuu… and it seems Hikari’s always been the way she is. Let’s see if Yuu’s image improves in the upcoming chapters.
 
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A lot of people are missing the main novel chapters too, which often have important details that manga version skips. It's no big deal, you can always reference something from the novel in discussions and link it just to show where it can be found.
Eh I guess you're right already we're doing that alot with the WN chapters lol hopefully the main chapters also work to flesh out his character give us more of an insight his think
Sad that the guy who was translating novel chapters stopped. MTL is awkward sometimes.
Oh shit didn't even know there was someone who was translating- yeah it is a shame especially with the light novel coming out in...I think August? But I'm betting none of the stuff new in that will be too important

Thanks for the ping! I meant to check yesterday but got sidetracked by a far superior form of literature—and completely forgot.
No problem glad to help! Was a nice surprise to see this since I thought it was gonna be a bit till we got anything but seems like the schedule isn't actually changing at all we're just getting some chapters that are ONLY the novelization for a bit which i'm okay with

To add to your post, here's what Maruto posted on his X account:

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So it’s going to be Yuu’s arc... Let’s see if Maruto finally shows what these girls find so special about him, because so far, I just don’t see it. Haven’t read it yet—gonna do my MTL and post it.
GOD PLEASE I HOPE SO- I mean I don't dislike the guy he seems nice enough most of the time all the drama bullshit aside but hasn't gotten much else but fleshing out is history with Hikari will hopefully really give of us a better feeling and understanding of him and his feelings

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So we’ll finally have Yuu’s POV, in the form of a side story. For now, it’s only available in novel format. In my previous post, complementing @middle-the-nerd, I shared what Maruto posted on X, confirming that this will indeed be Yuu’s arc. Here’s an MTL of the chapter:

wglwEbN.png

Chapter 1: A Fateful Encounter

It was in March of the year when Hikari and I were about to start elementary school that our families, the Takamuras and the Shirasakas, moved into these side-by-side prefab homes.

Just a little earlier, at the end of February, I had come down with a bad case of chickenpox, right before graduation from kindergarten and the move. Because of that, I wasn’t able to say goodbye to any of my kindergarten friends and just ended up moving into this house.

And even in April, after the move, the traces of the illness, the rash, were still all over my face and body, and as soon as I entered elementary school, I ended up practically not going at all.

With those ugly bumps all over my face, arms, and legs, I didn’t just hate the idea of going to school, I even cried at the thought of stepping outside or going into the yard. My parents were clearly at their wit’s end, but they never scolded or forced me; they let me do as I pleased.

So for a while, I stayed shut in my room, spending the day in bed and staying up late at night when I couldn’t sleep. I was free to do what I wanted, but none of it was fun.

That miserable routine was finally broken on a Sunday.

Hikari: “Ah-ha~! There you are~!”
Yuu: “Eh...”

That day, as usual, I was killing time with nothing to do, and on a whim, I opened the window of my room, which had been shut tight all this time.

But outside the window wasn’t some great view or anything, just the wall of another prefab house, the same design as ours, and a window facing mine that was built exactly the same.

From that window, a girl about my age was resting her chin on her hand, staring right at me.

Hikari: “Heyyy~ heyy~, what's with those little dots~?”
Yuu: “Huh!?”

It was only the second thing she said after we met for the first time, but she, Shirasaka Hikari, suddenly asked about the traces of the illness still left on my body.

Now, knowing her well, I can say without a doubt that it was just innocent childlike curiosity. Nothing more.

But for a shy first-grade boy, being asked something like that out of nowhere by a girl he just met… well, it was rough. Really rough.

Yuu: “…uh”
Hikari: “Huh?”
Yuu: “Uwaaah… Waaahhhhhhh!”
Hikari: “Eh? Ehhhhhhh!?”

I cried so loud that you could hear me from the living rooms of both our houses, and of course, our parents from both sides were totally shocked.

Later, when Hikari’s parents found out why I had burst into tears, they apologized to us so profusely it made us feel bad. And then, in response, they scolded Hikari really harshly, so harshly that she ended up bawling too, and then our parents felt terrible. It was a whole cycle of apologies and tears.

But in the end, that intense first meeting ended up cementing a friendship between the Takamuras and the Shirasakas that has lasted over ten years, through family outings and dinners together.

Even now, whenever our families hang out, that story always comes up. It’s our go-to tale. Hikari always gets mad, and I always get embarrassed.

And so, the next morning, the doorbell rang. My mom answered the door…

There stood Hikari, smiling brightly with her backpack on, completely oblivious to the situation, she had come to invite me to walk to school together.

…………

…………

Boy 1: “Whoaa, what's up with this guy~?! He's covered in weird dots all over~!"”
Boy 2: “Ewwww~, gross~! Stay away, stay away!”
Yuu: “…”

Dragged along by her and nervously making my way into the classroom, I was immediately hit with a “welcome” from some of the boys in class.

The rashes on my face and body had already healed and scabbed over, but of course, first graders couldn’t tell the difference. Once a few boys started teasing me, others quickly joined in, until about ten of them were jeering at me in chorus, louder and louder.

And just as I was about to be swallowed up by the same sadness I’d felt over the weekend, tears welling up again, thinking “I shouldn’t have come after all”—

Hikari: “You absolutely, ABSOLUTELY can’t say stuff like that!!”

Her voice rang out loud enough to probably reach the teachers’ office. Hikari, the girl who had brought me here, shouted at them, her face bright red with anger.

Hikari: “It’s a disease anyone can get! You could get it too!”
Hikari: “It hurt a lot, okay!? He toughed it out, put on his medicine, and finally got better so he could come to school!”
Hikari: “So that makes him amazing! He’s way, way more amazing than any of you!”

…That whole speech sounded really familiar.
Right, she was repeating almost word for word the scolding she’d gotten from her parents the day before.

Which meant her words weren’t exactly based on her own knowledge or understanding.
She just believed it was right because her parents said so. She got scolded like that, so now she was turning around and throwing it at everyone else.

And if you asked, “So does she really understand what she’s saying?”, well, honestly, I’m pretty sure she didn’t.

But even so…
Even if it was secondhand, even if it was naive, even if she was just being impulsive—

I still thought Hikari’s outburst was the coolest thing in the whole world.

In the first class of the day, our homeroom teacher spent the entire period explaining my condition in detail to everyone.

And the boys who had teased me? They were forced to apologize in front of the whole class. (Honestly, that probably traumatized them too.)
With “justice” officially served, Hikari couldn’t stop grinning in triumph.

That was the moment of my “fateful encounter”, and the start of my first love.

Looking back on it calmly, there were plenty of questionable things about how she handled it.
When I later told the story to four of my friends, three of them went, “Seriously? You fell for her because of that?”

But still… in that moment, what saved me was how casual she was, and how unreasonably, irrationally on my side she was.

Hikari: “If anything ever happens again, make sure to tell me, okay? Ta~kun!”
Yuu: “Y-yeah… Thanks, Hikari-chan.”

…By the way, she didn’t actually remember my name correctly back then.
And that’s how my life as “Ta~kun”, the childhood friend, began.

…………

…………

Takamura Yuu, first grade at the time.

Back then, I had no idea she’d turn out to be such a hard nut to crack…
Or that I’d end up being this pathetically hung up on her.


Insight:

Not the brightest start for Yuu… and it seems Hikari’s always been the way she is. Let’s see if Yuu’s image improves in the upcoming chapters.
I think the big takeaway isn't just that Hikari has always been this way it's that it seems Yuu has always been fairly shy/self-conscious

Sure he's in first grade it makes sense he doesn't wanna go to school over this but seems like it was to a bit of an extreme even for that-

But I also think this could be one of the big thing's that changed with him that made her develop feelings for him if there dynamic was like this for a rather long time it would make sense why she would see him more as a younger brother
 
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So we’ll finally have Yuu’s POV, in the form of a side story. For now, it’s only available in novel format. In my previous post, complementing @middle-the-nerd, I shared what Maruto posted on X, confirming that this will indeed be Yuu’s arc. Here’s an MTL of the chapter:

wglwEbN.png

Chapter 1: A Fateful Encounter

It was in March of the year when Hikari and I were about to start elementary school that our families, the Takamuras and the Shirasakas, moved into these side-by-side prefab homes.

Just a little earlier, at the end of February, I had come down with a bad case of chickenpox, right before graduation from kindergarten and the move. Because of that, I wasn’t able to say goodbye to any of my kindergarten friends and just ended up moving into this house.

And even in April, after the move, the traces of the illness, the rash, were still all over my face and body, and as soon as I entered elementary school, I ended up practically not going at all.

With those ugly bumps all over my face, arms, and legs, I didn’t just hate the idea of going to school, I even cried at the thought of stepping outside or going into the yard. My parents were clearly at their wit’s end, but they never scolded or forced me; they let me do as I pleased.

So for a while, I stayed shut in my room, spending the day in bed and staying up late at night when I couldn’t sleep. I was free to do what I wanted, but none of it was fun.

That miserable routine was finally broken on a Sunday.

Hikari: “Ah-ha~! There you are~!”
Yuu: “Eh...”

That day, as usual, I was killing time with nothing to do, and on a whim, I opened the window of my room, which had been shut tight all this time.

But outside the window wasn’t some great view or anything, just the wall of another prefab house, the same design as ours, and a window facing mine that was built exactly the same.

From that window, a girl about my age was resting her chin on her hand, staring right at me.

Hikari: “Heyyy~ heyy~, what's with those little dots~?”
Yuu: “Huh!?”

It was only the second thing she said after we met for the first time, but she, Shirasaka Hikari, suddenly asked about the traces of the illness still left on my body.

Now, knowing her well, I can say without a doubt that it was just innocent childlike curiosity. Nothing more.

But for a shy first-grade boy, being asked something like that out of nowhere by a girl he just met… well, it was rough. Really rough.

Yuu: “…uh”
Hikari: “Huh?”
Yuu: “Uwaaah… Waaahhhhhhh!”
Hikari: “Eh? Ehhhhhhh!?”

I cried so loud that you could hear me from the living rooms of both our houses, and of course, our parents from both sides were totally shocked.

Later, when Hikari’s parents found out why I had burst into tears, they apologized to us so profusely it made us feel bad. And then, in response, they scolded Hikari really harshly, so harshly that she ended up bawling too, and then our parents felt terrible. It was a whole cycle of apologies and tears.

But in the end, that intense first meeting ended up cementing a friendship between the Takamuras and the Shirasakas that has lasted over ten years, through family outings and dinners together.

Even now, whenever our families hang out, that story always comes up. It’s our go-to tale. Hikari always gets mad, and I always get embarrassed.

And so, the next morning, the doorbell rang. My mom answered the door…

There stood Hikari, smiling brightly with her backpack on, completely oblivious to the situation, she had come to invite me to walk to school together.

…………

…………

Boy 1: “Whoaa, what's up with this guy~?! He's covered in weird dots all over~!"”
Boy 2: “Ewwww~, gross~! Stay away, stay away!”
Yuu: “…”

Dragged along by her and nervously making my way into the classroom, I was immediately hit with a “welcome” from some of the boys in class.

The rashes on my face and body had already healed and scabbed over, but of course, first graders couldn’t tell the difference. Once a few boys started teasing me, others quickly joined in, until about ten of them were jeering at me in chorus, louder and louder.

And just as I was about to be swallowed up by the same sadness I’d felt over the weekend, tears welling up again, thinking “I shouldn’t have come after all”—

Hikari: “You absolutely, ABSOLUTELY can’t say stuff like that!!”

Her voice rang out loud enough to probably reach the teachers’ office. Hikari, the girl who had brought me here, shouted at them, her face bright red with anger.

Hikari: “It’s a disease anyone can get! You could get it too!”
Hikari: “It hurt a lot, okay!? He toughed it out, put on his medicine, and finally got better so he could come to school!”
Hikari: “So that makes him amazing! He’s way, way more amazing than any of you!”

…That whole speech sounded really familiar.
Right, she was repeating almost word for word the scolding she’d gotten from her parents the day before.

Which meant her words weren’t exactly based on her own knowledge or understanding.
She just believed it was right because her parents said so. She got scolded like that, so now she was turning around and throwing it at everyone else.

And if you asked, “So does she really understand what she’s saying?”, well, honestly, I’m pretty sure she didn’t.

But even so…
Even if it was secondhand, even if it was naive, even if she was just being impulsive—

I still thought Hikari’s outburst was the coolest thing in the whole world.

In the first class of the day, our homeroom teacher spent the entire period explaining my condition in detail to everyone.

And the boys who had teased me? They were forced to apologize in front of the whole class. (Honestly, that probably traumatized them too.)

With “justice” officially served, Hikari couldn’t stop grinning in triumph.

That was the moment of my “fateful encounter”, and the start of my first love.

Looking back on it calmly, there were plenty of questionable things about how she handled it.
When I later told the story to four of my friends, three of them went, “Seriously? You fell for her because of that?”

But still… in that moment, what saved me was how casual she was, and how unreasonably, irrationally on my side she was.

Hikari: “If anything ever happens again, make sure to tell me, okay? Ta~kun!”
Yuu: “Y-yeah… Thanks, Hikari-chan.”

…By the way, she didn’t actually remember my name correctly back then.
And that’s how my life as “Ta~kun”, the childhood friend, began.

…………

…………

Takamura Yuu, first grade at the time.

Back then, I had no idea she’d turn out to be such a hard nut to crack…
Or that I’d end up being this pathetically hung up on her.


Insight:

Not the brightest start for Yuu… and it seems Hikari’s always been the way she is. Let’s see if Yuu’s image improves in the upcoming chapters.
Thanks for the (M)TL!
So yeah as expected we finally gonna see Yuu POV now.

We prob gonna get like 5 or 6 chapters of this, covering from Yuu and Hikari childhood and prob until Yuu confession to Hikari.
I am fairly confident this side novel will finally give us the answers on the stuff that we have been discussing here lol

I personally really want to know how much in love Yuu really was with Yami during their relationship lol and i am also curious when is the moment he realise Hikari is the one he truly loves and the one he wants to be with
 
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Thanks for the (M)TL!
So yeah as expected we finally gonna see Yuu POV now.

We prob gonna get like 5 or 6 chapters of this, covering from Yuu and Hikari childhood and prob until Yuu confession to Hikari.
I am fairly confident this side novel will finally give us the answers on the stuff that we have been discussing here lol
Honestly i'm a little excited to get those answers finally lol
I personally really want to know how much in love Yuu really was with Yami during their relationship lol and i am also curious when is the moment he realise Hikari is the one he truly loves and the one he wants to be with
Yeah this is one of the things I really want to know as well- currently I'm assuming he did love Yami to an extent but wasn't really IN LOVE with her if that makes sense

I also think he always knew Hikari was the one he truly wanted to be with but it was more a situation of he didn't think he ever could be with her likely due to both his lack of self confidence and probably knowing at least at the time she didn't see him that way

But obviously this is just speculation
 
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currently I'm assuming he did love Yami to an extent but wasn't really IN LOVE with her if that makes sense
Figured that was one of the reasons why he never unequivocally told her he was in love with her, even when she's kinda outright fishing for him to (b/f ghosting).

But I also think this could be one of the big thing's that changed with him that made her develop feelings for him if there dynamic was like this for a rather long time it would make sense why she would see him more as a younger brother
Yeah, this is why I think "Hikari only likes him b/c of Aya" is basically the cope Aya is using it as in this chapter. Like yeah he maybe got more confidence from that relationship, but he could have also built that confidence in other ways, like maybe by confessing to Hikari.
 
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Figured that was one of the reasons why he never unequivocally told her he was in love with her, even when she's kinda outright fishing for him to (b/f ghosting).
Yeah it makes alot of sense to me I don't think he ever meant to hurt Yami I think he genuinely did try moving on from Hikari with her but in the end he just couldn't

Yeah, this is why I think "Hikari only likes him b/c of Aya" is basically the cope Aya is using it as in this chapter. Like yeah he maybe got more confidence from that relationship, but he could have also built that confidence in other ways, like maybe by confessing to Hikari.
Yeah I think saying Hikari only likes him because of Aya is such a disingenuous way to put it- yes his time with her DID change him and likely matured him and made him less reliant on Hikari which made her start to see him in a very different way which made her develop romantic feelings but that doesn't make them any less genuine just like how him being with Yami didn't make his feelings for Hikari any less genuine

And while his problems with self confidence and shit never fully went away I think finally getting closure from Yami is the thing that finally pushed him to confess his feelings he just made the dumbass mistake of rushing it when something was clearly going on with her but since it seems, even he admits his behavior was shitty hopefully he learns his lesson and actually opens up to Hikari about everything and apologizes
 
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Yami made this Manga really interesting before it was just another romance for people who need that...
 
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So we’ll finally have Yuu’s POV, in the form of a side story. For now, it’s only available in novel format. In my previous post, complementing @middle-the-nerd, I shared what Maruto posted on X, confirming that this will indeed be Yuu’s arc. Here’s an MTL of the chapter:

wglwEbN.png

Chapter 1: A Fateful Encounter

It was in March of the year when Hikari and I were about to start elementary school that our families, the Takamuras and the Shirasakas, moved into these side-by-side prefab homes.

Just a little earlier, at the end of February, I had come down with a bad case of chickenpox, right before graduation from kindergarten and the move. Because of that, I wasn’t able to say goodbye to any of my kindergarten friends and just ended up moving into this house.

And even in April, after the move, the traces of the illness, the rash, were still all over my face and body, and as soon as I entered elementary school, I ended up practically not going at all.

With those ugly bumps all over my face, arms, and legs, I didn’t just hate the idea of going to school, I even cried at the thought of stepping outside or going into the yard. My parents were clearly at their wit’s end, but they never scolded or forced me; they let me do as I pleased.

So for a while, I stayed shut in my room, spending the day in bed and staying up late at night when I couldn’t sleep. I was free to do what I wanted, but none of it was fun.

That miserable routine was finally broken on a Sunday.

Hikari: “Ah-ha~! There you are~!”
Yuu: “Eh...”

That day, as usual, I was killing time with nothing to do, and on a whim, I opened the window of my room, which had been shut tight all this time.

But outside the window wasn’t some great view or anything, just the wall of another prefab house, the same design as ours, and a window facing mine that was built exactly the same.

From that window, a girl about my age was resting her chin on her hand, staring right at me.

Hikari: “Heyyy~ heyy~, what's with those little dots~?”
Yuu: “Huh!?”

It was only the second thing she said after we met for the first time, but she, Shirasaka Hikari, suddenly asked about the traces of the illness still left on my body.

Now, knowing her well, I can say without a doubt that it was just innocent childlike curiosity. Nothing more.

But for a shy first-grade boy, being asked something like that out of nowhere by a girl he just met… well, it was rough. Really rough.

Yuu: “…uh”
Hikari: “Huh?”
Yuu: “Uwaaah… Waaahhhhhhh!”
Hikari: “Eh? Ehhhhhhh!?”

I cried so loud that you could hear me from the living rooms of both our houses, and of course, our parents from both sides were totally shocked.

Later, when Hikari’s parents found out why I had burst into tears, they apologized to us so profusely it made us feel bad. And then, in response, they scolded Hikari really harshly, so harshly that she ended up bawling too, and then our parents felt terrible. It was a whole cycle of apologies and tears.

But in the end, that intense first meeting ended up cementing a friendship between the Takamuras and the Shirasakas that has lasted over ten years, through family outings and dinners together.

Even now, whenever our families hang out, that story always comes up. It’s our go-to tale. Hikari always gets mad, and I always get embarrassed.

And so, the next morning, the doorbell rang. My mom answered the door…

There stood Hikari, smiling brightly with her backpack on, completely oblivious to the situation, she had come to invite me to walk to school together.

…………

…………

Boy 1: “Whoaa, what's up with this guy~?! He's covered in weird dots all over~!"”
Boy 2: “Ewwww~, gross~! Stay away, stay away!”
Yuu: “…”

Dragged along by her and nervously making my way into the classroom, I was immediately hit with a “welcome” from some of the boys in class.

The rashes on my face and body had already healed and scabbed over, but of course, first graders couldn’t tell the difference. Once a few boys started teasing me, others quickly joined in, until about ten of them were jeering at me in chorus, louder and louder.

And just as I was about to be swallowed up by the same sadness I’d felt over the weekend, tears welling up again, thinking “I shouldn’t have come after all”—

Hikari: “You absolutely, ABSOLUTELY can’t say stuff like that!!”

Her voice rang out loud enough to probably reach the teachers’ office. Hikari, the girl who had brought me here, shouted at them, her face bright red with anger.

Hikari: “It’s a disease anyone can get! You could get it too!”
Hikari: “It hurt a lot, okay!? He toughed it out, put on his medicine, and finally got better so he could come to school!”
Hikari: “So that makes him amazing! He’s way, way more amazing than any of you!”

…That whole speech sounded really familiar.
Right, she was repeating almost word for word the scolding she’d gotten from her parents the day before.

Which meant her words weren’t exactly based on her own knowledge or understanding.
She just believed it was right because her parents said so. She got scolded like that, so now she was turning around and throwing it at everyone else.

And if you asked, “So does she really understand what she’s saying?”, well, honestly, I’m pretty sure she didn’t.

But even so…
Even if it was secondhand, even if it was naive, even if she was just being impulsive—

I still thought Hikari’s outburst was the coolest thing in the whole world.

In the first class of the day, our homeroom teacher spent the entire period explaining my condition in detail to everyone.

And the boys who had teased me? They were forced to apologize in front of the whole class. (Honestly, that probably traumatized them too.)

With “justice” officially served, Hikari couldn’t stop grinning in triumph.

That was the moment of my “fateful encounter”, and the start of my first love.

Looking back on it calmly, there were plenty of questionable things about how she handled it.
When I later told the story to four of my friends, three of them went, “Seriously? You fell for her because of that?”

But still… in that moment, what saved me was how casual she was, and how unreasonably, irrationally on my side she was.

Hikari: “If anything ever happens again, make sure to tell me, okay? Ta~kun!”
Yuu: “Y-yeah… Thanks, Hikari-chan.”

…By the way, she didn’t actually remember my name correctly back then.
And that’s how my life as “Ta~kun”, the childhood friend, began.

…………

…………

Takamura Yuu, first grade at the time.

Back then, I had no idea she’d turn out to be such a hard nut to crack…
Or that I’d end up being this pathetically hung up on her.


Insight:

Not the brightest start for Yuu… and it seems Hikari’s always been the way she is. Let’s see if Yuu’s image improves in the upcoming chapters.
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Or that I’d end up being this pathetically hung up on her.

This is the part that caught my interest the most. Now, is this narration AFTER the rejection at the festival? If so, this one sentence pretty much paints him as resigned entirely or might mean "i'm so hopelessly in love" but that would be kinda out of place in the story since nothing has been that clear cut since the start.
 
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Do you guys think this manga/novel might get an anime adaptation in the future?
 
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I highly doubt it, but if their commercial release goes well, who knows.
Hopefully it sells well this comiket been a long time since an anime/manga gave me this much heart rush and angst pretty sure if this get's released people who watch anime only will get whiplashed by it just like the readers and the author/mangaka are pretty elite so maybe I mean rent a girlfriend got s4 so why can't this get an adaptation
 
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This is the part that caught my interest the most. Now, is this narration AFTER the rejection at the festival? If so, this one sentence pretty much paints him as resigned entirely or might mean "i'm so hopelessly in love" but that would be kinda out of place in the story since nothing has been that clear cut since the start.
That's something I didn't think about honestly...

We could also be overthinking it though since these are extra chapters it could just be the author decided to write them like that lol
 
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the poor kind hearted mc getting dumped for no reason from his ex, and dumped again from his childhood friend, and both actualy love him
 
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Seems like we got Yuu's first heartbreak reading it from a third person you can understand that Yuu has quite the inferiority complex which is quite relatable and feeling like the villain in someone's story...
I bet the second heartbreak will be worse maybe something related to the exams which spirals him to his despair and finding a shelter in his misery
 
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Yuu’s Chapter – Chapter 2: My First Heartbreak

From the moment we first met, Hikari was someone I looked up to.

And the moment that admiration turned into love...
The moment she changed from a dependable hero into a girl I couldn’t take my eyes off—
That was around the time we started fifth grade, in the fall.

Kosuke: “Hey, Yuu, you like Shirasaka, don’t you~”
Yuu: “I do not!”

Actually, the one who noticed my feelings before Hikari did… no, even before I realized it myself…
was my friend back then, a boy named Kosuke Ishikawa, who I was pretty close with.

Kosuke: “But Yuu, you get all fidgety whenever you talk to Shirasaka lately. And during class, you keep sneaking glances at her seat and stuff~”
Yuu: “…Why do you know so much about me, anyway, Kosuke?”

Well, putting aside how observant Kosuke was when it came to me—
I still remember how I broke into a cold sweat as his words made me realize:
Yeah… now that he mentions it… that stuff’s all true…

Like when Hikari would drop by my house in super casual clothes,
and I’d catch myself staring without meaning to.
(For the record, Hikari back then didn’t seem to care at all that I was watching her.)

Or how I was totally thrown off by the “dramatic reactions” happening in my body.
Or how I got scared of the changes in myself and started keeping my distance from her…

Yeah—
That was probably the beginning of my so-called puberty.

…………

…………

Yuu: “Wait, Kosuke! What did you do!?”
Kosuke: “Chill. I did it for your sake, Yuu.”

And so, acting way too mature for a fifth grader, Kosuke pulled a ridiculous stunt just a few days later.

He casually told me in the classroom before school started that he had slipped a love letter—with my name signed on it—into Hikari’s shoe cubby.

I was speechless.

Yuu: “A-a handwritten love letter? Seriously? Who even does that anymore…”
Kosuke: “I mean, if I sent it by email, she’d know it was me right away.”
Yuu: “T-then at least use a throwaway account or something…”
Kosuke: “That’s just spam at that point. You’d believe a shady email like that, Yuu?”
Yuu: “What you did is already way past the level of spam for me…”

…Okay, never mind, I wasn’t speechless.
I talked a lot back then, didn’t I?

Kosuke: “Anyway! If she shows up at the meeting spot, it means she’s into you. And even if she doesn’t, she’ll definitely start being aware of you!”
Yuu: “…And if she doesn’t show, and nothing about her changes?”
Kosuke: “Then she’s not interested. Time to give up.”
Yuu: “You are the biggest meddler on Earth!”

Still, despite all my grumbling and whining, Kosuke skillfully talked me into it.
In the end, I never managed to retrieve that bomb of a letter he planted in her cubby.

And then, a few tense and silent minutes passed…
until finally, Hikari arrived at school—

Hikari: “Ishikawa! This prank was your doing, wasn’t it!?”
Kosuke: “She figured it out instantlyyyyy!?”

In the end, thanks to Hikari’s sharp insight and quick reaction—like a top-tier bomb squad—
we managed to avoid the worst-case scenario:
having the fake news that I sent her a love letter spread around the whole school.

…………

…………

Hikari: “That was so close, huh, Ta~kun.”
Yuu: “Th-thanks, Hikari…”

That evening on our way home…
Hikari didn’t forget to check in on me, her fellow “victim” in the whole ordeal.

Hikari: “I can’t believe he played such a nasty prank… Maybe I should’ve chewed him out even more?”
Yuu: “It’s fine… Kosuke-kun did apologize, after all.”
Hikari: “Hey, Ta~kun, you’re really not being bullied or anything, right? Are you getting along okay with the other boys?”
Yuu: “Y-yeah, really… it’s not like that at all.”
Hikari: “Hmm, you sure~?”
Yuu: “Do I really seem that untrustworthy…?”
Hikari: “It’s just… you’re really kind, Ta~kun. You’re the type who can’t say no to things you don’t like.”
Yuu: “Th-that’s not… well, maybe you’re right.”
Hikari: “And I hate it when the boys take advantage of that kindness and mess with you.”
Yuu: “Hikari…”

In that moment—
seeing Hikari still playing the role of “justice’s ally” just like always…

I felt like a villain, pretending to be the hero’s friend while hiding his crimes.
…Though I guess real villains don’t feel guilty about stuff like that, do they?

Because the truth is, deep down…
there was a part of me that wanted to lean on Kosuke-kun’s pure goodwill. Or his meddling. Or his cruel little prank—whatever it really was.

If Hikari had been happy to get that letter, I would’ve claimed it was a true expression of my feelings.
And if she’d hated it, I could’ve just blamed it on my friend acting on his own and gotten away clean.

If I waited to see how my childhood friend felt and then chose my stance accordingly,
then I wouldn’t have to risk getting seriously hurt…
That kind of sly, calculating side of me—
the part I didn’t want to admit existed—was definitely there.

…In the end, though, that shallow little scheme of mine didn’t stand a chance against the brilliance of Hikari’s unwavering sense of justice.

Hikari: “So listen—if you ever have trouble with anything, don’t hesitate to come talk to me, okay?”
Yuu: “Y-yeah… I’m counting on you.”

But this “hero of justice”...
was so easily fooled by a villain’s pitiful lie,
and smiled.

Hikari: “I’m glad. I was afraid you might hate me.”
Yuu: “There’s no way I’d ever…”
Hikari: “’Cause lately, Ta~kun… you’ve kind of been avoiding me, haven’t you?”
Yuu: “Ah…”

She smiled—just a little—like she was relieved.
And for some reason, that smile made me feel even more guilty.

Hikari: “I was worried… that maybe you started to hate this meddlesome side of me.”
Yuu: “Th-that’s not true at all…”
Hikari: “Yeah… Hearing you say that just now makes me feel relieved.”

The girl who was like a child of the sun—so bright I had to look away—
was still watching over me, not as someone special,
but just like a regular girl who happened to live next door.

Hikari: “To me, Ta~kun, you’ve always been a precious childhood friend.”
Yuu: “Hikari…”
Hikari: “So I’m not gonna stop worrying about you, or talking to you at school, or butting into your business, okay?”
Yuu: “…Thanks.”

Like family.

That’s why I could believe it—
that Hikari had never once even considered the possibility,
that I might actually like her.

My feelings hadn’t reached her at all.

Maybe this was my punishment.
For not being able to confess without my friend pushing me into it.

Hikari: “So anyway! I was thinking… can I come over to your place today? It’s been a while.”
Yuu: “A while? You’ve been coming over every week.”
Hikari: “That’s just for dinner! I haven’t been to your room lately.”
Yuu: “Wait—hold on! Then I need to clean up!”
Hikari: “It’s fine, it’s fine~! My room’s a total mess too~”

From that day on, the distance between Hikari and me went back to the way it used to be.
The kind of distance where we could come and go from each other’s rooms freely,
and no one thought twice about it.

Just two childhood friends.

And that day—
was the day I experienced my first heartbreak.


Maruto’s post on X:

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黄昏の章(今回からつけました)二話更新しました。タ~君の幼少期に降りかかる災難は大体自分の体験そのままなんですが、彼と違うのはその時にかばってくれる女の子がいなかったことくらいですかね… #さらなみ

I’ve updated Chapter 2 of Yuu’s Chapter (just added the title starting from this update). Most of the misfortunes that befall Ta~kun in his childhood are pretty much things I experienced myself, but I guess the one difference is, unlike him, I didn’t have a girl there to stand up for me.... #Saranami


Insight:

I don’t have much to say… but I don’t think this chapter did Yuu’s image any favors. At least he’s self-aware enough to admit that he let things play out to see what would happen without fully compromising himself:
That kind of sly, calculating side of me—
the part I didn’t want to admit existed—was definitely there.
 
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