Ugh, I don’t know how to feel. I’ve read the whole thing in 3 days. When the tone changed, I thought about dropping it, but I kept going because in chapter 30 the author said something like it had gotten a bit dark but there would be a happy ending. From that point on, it just got darker and darker with no 'improvement'. When the thing about the video sent to the father came out, it crossed the line of being messed up and I was definitely going to drop it. Yet here I am, reading the latest release, still wanting to see how anyone could come out of this story on top... A 13-year-old girl being promiscuous not just with kids her age, but with adults too, really breaks me, and yet I’m still fucking here!!! Why?
On the other hand, the 'good' ending, so to speak, is from my own worldview. By this, I mean that the act of dissociating sex and relationships is very hard for me to understand; I guess this also depends on how each person views the world. In the case of the ending I'd want, she would end up with the protagonist and stop being so promiscuous. But I also see how that might look like someone being controlling, or like she will just end up suppressed forever, which sooner or later turns out badly.
Also, after every messed-up chapter, I would come here and read the comments—something I have never done before. Because of how twisted the story is, I wanted to see what others thought. I always like to reflect on things, but there are limits for me, like what I mentioned earlier about dissociating sex from being in a relationship. I just can't dissociate them
In short, I don't like the whole direction it has taken. I liked the beginning with two huge perverts where everything was just in their heads and they didn't cross the line of sleeping around with just anyone to fulfill their fantasies. But even though I want to drop it, I'm going to keep reading. Call me weak for not being able to stop watching something I feel a certain hatred towards. Or maybe morbid curiosity in people is stronger than one thinks?
Note: I used AI to translate this. My English isn't great, especially for a text this long, and honestly, I'm a bit mentally broken right now, haha