Amayo no Tsuki - Vol. 12 Ch. 45 - Awareness

[MangaDex]

 

[shinmera]

oh my goooodddddd

 

[undercover1337]

Made my day

 

[UdenEmpati]

You gotta love yourself before you can love someone else.





She's aware of the problem, she knows she's a coward. Now the hardest part of all, is Saki confronting the big hurdle in her way.

The problem being, that she's gone and shown Kanon that there's something that Saki can't communicate to her. And Kanon is going to spiral on that, feeling like she can't broach it herself...because Saki would tell her, right? She always tells her, doesn't she? There's nothing she'd hide from Kanon specifically, is there?
It's not exactly a race against time, but.....in a sense, it sort of is. And sadly, it's not something that can be quickly fixed, for Saki.

But, here's to hoping that the strain doesn't snap their tether before Saki can come to terms with herself.



Thanks for what you do.

 

[Sionnach91]

THANKS FOR THE CHAPTER

 

[FoolTarot]

This one was a rough ride

 

[CynicalPepper]

Fantastic Chapter

 

[AntQueen]

Thanks for the TL! You really are spoiling us

Its so exciting to see this moment finally get translated, Saki has made some incredible progress by vocalizing her crush, and realizing the biggest obstacle to overcome is her own lack of confidence and trust in herself.

This feels to me like a likely place where we will drift to Kanon's point of view. Saki just reached a major milestone, and Kanon probably has a lot to think about interpreting Saki's recent behavior, which has made it clear Saki has something she isn't ready to tell her yet.

An element waiting in the background are those photos taken in chapter 41, its possible the next arc will involve Kanon puzzling over her feelings for Saki, building up to the moment she looks at the photos and has a breakthrough realizing what her feelings are. Alternatively, the next arc could involve Kanon working on figuring what her passion or future career is, since that is another aspect of her development she has too tackle before high school is over.

 

[mindlessBiped]

Is there a worse way for that useless lesbian to voice her feelings? Look a Kanons face in those pannels. She looks traumatized. No wonder, this was the perfect way to make her aware oc her disability. Thankfully it doesnt seem to have become a big deal

 

[Kamui]

oh my goooodddddd

Kanon is saying "I love you, Saki" in all ways possible and these two dorks don't realize it

I love how the visual of "Evil Saki" is just "Evil Mahiro". It really drives home the "yeah, this shit is all my head."

 

[Tekbox12]

the tl is fye u do good stuff twin on my momma

 

[Purplelibraryguy]

You gotta love yourself before you can love someone else.

I like the general tenor of this post, but I gotta say, that particular bit is not actually true. It sounds good and it goes with a message of trying to improve yourself so you can treat others better which is a good positive message up to a point, but it just isn't the case, like, at all.

Lots of people who love others deeply, don't love themselves. And cutting yourself off from love until you're all better is actually a terrible idea, because cutting yourself off from love is a great way to stop yourself from getting better.

 

[Thrembs]

We all knew this was coming.
It still hurts.

 

[EllyOliphant]

Phew, that was emotional! Thanks so much for the treats of fast chapters! 💖

 

[dqvdqv]

The wheels are spinning a bit at this point. This dance... we've done this before.

 

[UdenEmpati]

I like the general tenor of this post, but I gotta say, that particular bit is not actually true. It sounds good and it goes with a message of trying to improve yourself so you can treat others better which is a good positive message up to a point, but it just isn't the case, like, at all.

Lots of people who love others deeply, don't love themselves. And cutting yourself off from love until you're all better is actually a terrible idea, because cutting yourself off from love is a great way to stop yourself from getting better.

Counterpoint: it's also more nuanced than your interpretation.

A person can absolutely love others without loving themselves; but, those other people, assuming that bond is at all mutual, tend to pick up on a lack of self-love, and such sentiments tend to cause problems for everyone involved. Those "loved ones" are going to be hurt by your(general) lack of love for self, which is why it's something that should be worked toward, even if it takes time.

Also, you can still be loved by others whilst working on self-love, because that external compassion and care can still be pointed in your direction, even if it's not pointed outwardly from you. That doesn't exclude that self-love is a worthwhile pursuit, because I would posit it generally makes the situation better for everyone involved if a person cares about themselves as well, meaning they're not habitually putting their needs and wants last for the sake of everyone around them. Anyone who's actually invested in the relationship will pick up on that self-deprecating and self-sacrificing behavior, and it will put a strain on things if it's not addressed.

I absolutely was simplifying the sentiment for the sake of catchy phrasing. But it's still not an incorrect statement, even if it requires more nuanced clarification past the words of the phrase itself.

"figuring out how to love yourself first" doesn't necessitate cutting yourself off from love. Arguably, it requires that you have others around you who care; it doesn't just happen in a vacuum, like you sit in a cave in solitude and only emerge once you reach some hypothetical state of emotional enlightenment. It's just that it's also generally easier to build healthy relationships with others in a myriad of ways if you like yourself as a person, because you'll be better equipped to balance your needs and your own health and well-being against those around you, making all connections and relationships more equitable and less parasitic (in either direction).

And all of that in that original comment would have taken away from the rest of what I wanted to actually say.

 

[UdenEmpati]

The wheels are spinning a bit at this point. This dance... we've done this before.

not really; before, Saki wasn't actually aware of what she was doing or what "the core problem was", whereas now she is, and can thus start taking steps toward addressing it (though I don't expect it to be easy, because it arguably never realistically is with things like this).

 

[iikaido]

Ah thank you so much for another translation and so fast. So glad you lived this up. Good work.

 

[tranhere]

Thanks for the amazing translation! You got this Saki ❤️

 

[PsychoTheRabbit]

When is noisy the problem for not hearing is the noise, but in Kanon case, tho she partially understood it was intentional, the problem would be her disability which is indeed pretty low from Saki imho. More selfish than i expected from her.
Anyway, tho Saki once again didnt make things easy for Kanon, but shes getting there. I dont think Kanon will get her feelings before Saki solves her problems with herself. Either way, i just want someone to blurt it out to Kanon that shes in love. I dont feel like the need for her to figure it out by herself is preserving the experience or that she'll lose anything if someone helps her understand. Thats just a drag mechanic at this point