@sterven
There's nothing wrong, it is just that I'm always told "this is you money" and can't use it on anything. I get that I should prepare that money for the future (for stuff like food, taxes and shit), but I have little to no management of it, so I don't feel like I truly own it (Like I can count the times I've seen the actual numbers with one hand). I don't ask for much tbh, no new tv (the one I had previously was an outdated and burned plasma tv), no new console until the previous one literally breaks, not even books; most of my things are 2nd hand (which is not bad, it saves money). Heck, I even lend my parents money from that very source every so often. I think they still owe me some.
Of course, once I stop being a useless leech of society into a chad worker that gains his paycheck, then I'll truly have the opportunity to waste my money into whatever I want. But for now, I have to put up with it, I just get frustrated from time to time.