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So, from how the manhwa has characterised OG Haneul she seemed more fatalistic than anything else. But then she is sorta "broken" even here in the "fixed" timeline? Also, I'm guessing her object of focus as a yandere is Kyunwoo, right? But then did her inner-most yandere ever show itself up to this point?
Another question this raised for me, does the novel treat this part of her as something natural that she and others just need to lear to cope with, or something to be fully fixed?
It shows up a lot because she is an Ain and endures endless torment because of it. On the more lighthearted side, she will scold Kyunwoo when he looks at other girls and rabbits. When she perceives other love rivals, she actually gets violent like smashing trees with her hammer as intimidation and even warning other girls directly. That's the most she ever acts out. The other female characters quickly learn not to get too close to Kyunwoo too fast or to restrain her when they see the warning signs. Also Kyunwoo's level of bro with his bros sometimes makes her think he's gay, but they all deny it quickly. So typically it's played for comedic effect and rarely anything too serious.
But the most tragic part is that she is extremely insecure about her relationship with Kyunwoo. She knows very well that as an Ain she is liable to be discarded without warning. Oftentimes humans approach Ain under the guise of true love when it's really just temporary perverted curiosity. Part of her knows that Kyunwoo isn't like that but high society and the general public perpetuate the notion that Ain are merely pets at best and monster offspring at worst. This is an eternal source of heartbreak for her and she is always struggling with these derogatory remarks at the back of her mind, just like Kyunwoo's mother.
Her other yandere thoughts include killing everyone on the planet (much like the bad end he's trying to avoid) besides Kyunwoo so that he will be forced to only look at her or imprisoning him in a private room. She even contemplates studying necromancy so that not even death could separate them. She knows these thoughts are wrong but she can't help it. She is an Ain. She has also expressed that she does not care what other people think because the only opinion that she cares about is Kyunwoo's. And that what Kyunwoo desires is what she will desire. However, these only remain thoughts because Kyunwoo always showers her in endless affection and reassurances. He always compliments how beautiful the color of her eyes are even when she is constantly reminded that the red eyes of Ain are the same as that of monsters. And sometimes she goes to her girl friends for support as well.
Even then, these worries persist for a very long time because their relationship could not go beyond "childhood friend" because Kyunwoo is nobility and Haneul is an Ain with unknown lineage. Both of them are very aware of this and this is the biggest reason why Kyunwoo leaves the relationship ambiguous, much to Haneul's anxiety. Even a mere rumor about dating the wrong people would be enough to torpedo his social standing. But overcoming the status difference is a part of these stories so enjoy the ride.
“Ain has a severe lack of affection. No matter how much she was loved and raised, she will be no exception. We inevitably face discrimination because we look different from others. That’s why we’re quick to give up and become discouraged.”
The woman opened her mouth.
“Besides, the children we give birth to will not inherit their parents’ genes, ever. Do you know how sad it is to know that you can’t leave your genes or those of your partner behind in this world? The frustration of not being able to prove to your loved one that the child is yours? The guilt? What about the fear that it could provide room for anxiety that it might be someone else’s child? What about distrust of the partner? What about society's perspective? Anyone other than Ain will never understand this.”
The woman opened her mouth.
“Besides, the children we give birth to will not inherit their parents’ genes, ever. Do you know how sad it is to know that you can’t leave your genes or those of your partner behind in this world? The frustration of not being able to prove to your loved one that the child is yours? The guilt? What about the fear that it could provide room for anxiety that it might be someone else’s child? What about distrust of the partner? What about society's perspective? Anyone other than Ain will never understand this.”
So in short, in the OG timeline she never had anything and thus completely gave up. In this timeline, Kyunwoo is her sun (or life raft) and she is loathe to let it go.
Also regarding her fatalism, as the manhwa explained Haneul had a particularly hard life in the game and this is partially explained by her extremely low luck stat. She almost always loses in coin tosses, has never won a single prize from scratchers/lotteries, businesses that she tries to use coupons at go shut down, and when she looks at the weather report it turns out to always be wrong (Kyunwoo teasing her about the weather made her think aloud about destroying the world, much to his panic). When Kyunwoo asked her what kind of books she liked to read, she said her favorite genre was Romance Fantasy. Romance is something OG Haneul never experienced and in the game, she dies at the intersection of Romance and Fantasy streets in the Academy City. So just as the beginning of the manhwa noted that it seemed like she bore all the misfortunes of the world from birth, Kyunwoo remarked that her death truly was as if the world wanted to ridicule Haneul to the very end. Honestly it is not surprising OG Haneul decided to end the world.
Unaware of her rock bottom luck stat, current timeline Haneul wonders if she had used up her entire life's worth of luck to meet Kyunwoo.
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