FR!!! and how this plays into us seeing how clueless shima was and is still in certain ways to how much he liked grew to like and still actively does like her - like babygirl, u LOVE love her!!!!
just alllll this time to overthink himself in and out of better understandings of himself her love and self worth 😂😭💗
he is such an in his own head stumbling awkward self decreed LoserMess (not verbatim but i just know it) and i love him sm spirals and all 😭😭😭💗💗
also omg 😭😭😭 the way that its only bc shes trying to play cool bc they both thought he was only feeling platonic affection that shima is reaffirming how strongly he realizes he feels now 😭😭
im about to explode oh i-fell-first-you-fell-harder how i love u sssssssm
theyre both so sweet and awkward and fumbly and soft around each other 😭
and the contrast between mitsumis oh haha silly me ofc it was different good job me for slowly adjusting ill get there little by little! 💗🌱
and shimas god has forsaken me i am the architect of all that haunts me will i ever be deserving of or feel what the warmth of true love 💀
BUT ALSO SHIMA NOW WANTING TO FIGHT FOR IT WANTING TO DO RIGHT BY HER WANTING TO DO RIGHT BY HIMSELF SHIMA IM SO PROUD OF YOU ITS HARD TO PICK URSELF UP OUT OF THE PITS OF UR OWN SELF DEPRECATION BUT YOU ARE CHOOSING TO DO IT AND EVEN IF ITS BC SHE INSPIRED YOU, ULTIMATELY THIS IS FOR YOU
SHIMA MY BOY 😭 IF U FIND URSELF WANTING TO LOVE URSELF MORE - THATS ALREADY AN ACT OF U LOVING URSELF - A THOUGHT OF SOMEONE WHO ALREADY LOVES THEMSELF - ONE WHO DOES SO ENOUGH TO FEEL THAT HURT OF THINKING THEY DONT 😭😭😭😭😭