i'm almost 30, i've done nothing with my life. I'm just a loser. I have no job, no loved ones, nothing. all I have is my bitter personality and manga.
i always feared of dying alone, never having someone, anyone in my life. not just a loving relationship, but friends. Even the motto, anyone can make friends on the internet never applied to me. I've lived my life in solitude and with no one really to talk to other than my parents and my better-off young sibling. Who has everything I never had. Good job out of college, in a relationship, self-reliant, good friend circle.
why was I born a failure? Sometimes I wish my parents never had me, and just left me to die on some dirty street. I've been nothing but a waste of their funds, funds they could use for my better sibling.
i think I'm done. It's too late for me. My birthday is in 4 days, I'll be thirty. with nothing to show for it. i was never able to tie the knot, but I know I can tie the noose.