Honestly, I find this relatable. In highschool, I was a pretty big loser and was really insecure.
Whenever I thought someone was a dick to me, I just imagined me stabbing them out of rage.
It stems from the feeling of helplessness, not thinking you’d be able to do anything back if they did anything REALLY offensive.
Like, say someone I hate looks at me then makes a joke about me to their friends. In my mind, I’d be pissed.
I’d imagine stabbing them, saying “what about now huh? Gonna say anything now?!” Irl, though, I’d just ignore them, walk away, or pretend I never heard it. It was a revenge fantasy that made me feel less pathetic than I was
Currently, I’ve calmed down. If someone mocks me, let them. They can’t affect my whole life, just this one small aspect of it. If they do though, just try to avoid them til they’re gone, or even try to make friends if u can.
Honestly I still think it’s harmless. Those revenge fantasies the MC uses are defense mechanisms while the MC irl is too spineless to do anything lethal. Trust me, I say this from experience.
Having someone he likes/trusts is healthy for him, no matter how many revenge fantasies that come into fruition. He just needs an understanding friend.
(Hopefully, though, his affection doesn’t evolve into blind obsession. An awkward person that doesn’t care for himself, obsessing over a girl, potentially going yandere over everyone that harshly offends her? Now THAT’S dangerous.)