I have to say: I get the MC feeling of "not wanting to drag down anybody else into the same shitty spot he was". Fortunately, I've grown out of that place. However, seeing him like this kinda hit close to home.
Was it stupid thing to do? Yes. Was there a better way to cope and to act out of it? Absolutely. Should you just stay in that terrible mindset and stay away from others? No, you can do better.
In the end, I hope the MC get a proper development and not wail in this childish, now that I looked back at it, mindset of "I will stay behind the limelight so as to not get others down with the shitty me".
Was it stupid thing to do? Yes. Was there a better way to cope and to act out of it? Absolutely. Should you just stay in that terrible mindset and stay away from others? No, you can do better.
In the end, I hope the MC get a proper development and not wail in this childish, now that I looked back at it, mindset of "I will stay behind the limelight so as to not get others down with the shitty me".