@Doomer He did make an effort to meet her, several times took him 10 Years to get into the brothel
This is medieval (?) china so do not impose sensibilities of our times on Rakan, people should be judged in context of the times people live in, Rakan prob. despises himself to some extent but we will find out soon enough
It seems mao mao knows what sort of things would hurt rakan at an emotional level
which can be hard for a logical person like who regards other people as just pieces on a board